Back to Business!

Still in a happy mood from all the birthday fun! It has been another exciting house week around here. Last Wednesday, my birthday, our kitchen began leaking into the downstairs apt. 😦 We were without the use of or kitchen sink for 5 days. sigh….Happily, it has been fixed…and it was not the stack, which would have been a very big deal indeed! We (I) had to carry water to the bathroom in a basin. Janet, my favorite physical therapist of all time, said “I hope you’re not carrying water?” uh, yes…..I tried to keep it light as possible.

Now that it is fixed…back to juicing, and soon, a fast! I have been slowly allowing some things back into my diet that really should not be there. Some wheat and dairy, and one of my favorite sins…COFFEE. I’ve noticed that I don’t feel as well…hmm. I’ve been reading blogs and a couple of cookbooks about eating raw. I get overwhelmed easily these days. Food is always an issue for me. I have some pretty big nourishment issues on physical and, I suspect, emotional and spiritual levels. Figuring out what to eat, and preparing it, (and wanting to), not cutting to the easiest route, is hard for me. I think I’ll have to take this in little baby steps so I can be successful and not fail.

I’ve been reading Crazy Sexy Cancer Tips. Kris Carr says “My shrink taught me that cancer patients go through the same post traumatic stress disorder as soldiers or rape victims. At first I thought she was being awfully dramatic…but then it made sense. I was in total shock after my diagnosis. To be honest, that shock lasted several years, and even though I never had treatment and manage cancer on my own, at times I am still overcome by it” (Crazy sexy Cancer Tips / Carr, Kris, Skirt, 2007 pg.20-21)

After reading this I felt so much better! I simply have a very hard time managing everything that I have to manage. My brain goes “tilt”! My body is tired and it is hard to think. I’m afraid of my mail (what bad news is there? unpaid bills, insurance hassles) Everything feels on the very edge of spinning out of control all the time.

Today I got some more medical news. (remember those blood tests from a couple of weeks ago?) The good news is that I don’t have hepatitis C (or any other kind). The not so good news is I have Lyme Disease, and two of the infections that commonly come with it. Bartonella,(Cat Scratch Fever), and Ehrlichia. I’ve suspected Lyme for more than a year. I tested positive for one of the markers last year. Then the cancer diagnosis happened, and treatment for that was top priority. Sooo…I’m making an apt with a dr. in MD…I’ll write up what he says, (and his CV, which is pretty impressive. Yale Medical school etc., later) I suspect that he will recommend IV antibiotics (oh my poor gut flora!). I’m told that the secondary infections have to be dealt with first, then the Lyme. All of this is a huge drain on my immune system….Cleaning it up is really important.

This is all I have time for right now…stay tuned!

More pictures as soon as I figure out how to empty the card!  Where is my film crew?  sigh…